Feel a bit better today. Not sure why exactly but it's a start. Managed to keep my eating under control today, even though I wanted to binge. It's difficult but if I can ignore the cravings, they pass in about 20 to 30 mins. Off on holiday tomorrow evening so I'll have to do the best I can food-wise. Once I get back I'm going to try to lose as much weight as I can for a friend's wedding at the end of October. If I stick at it I can shift much of the weight I have regained and then, hopefully, hit my target just in time for Christmas (a food nightmare!).  

Perhaps I should give up.

Feeling worse than I was before. Actually cried earlier for no reason. I went to the Doctor's the other day to see if I could get some SSRIs as they're supposed to help with binge eating. He said he'd prescribe them if I really wanted me to, but he recommended that I wait for my self-help appointment. As I don't like going against medical advice I said I'd wait, but maybe I should go back and see him again (he said to go back if I changed my mind).

Ugh, scrap everything I said in my last post. This is probably the lowest I have been for as long as I can remember. I try to look on the bright side because in the grand scheme of things I've nothing to complain about. But at the end of the day everyone's reference point is their own life. My PhD is going nowhere fast, despite how much I try to convince my supervisor (who is next to useless). I wasn't given the job that I was practically promised, and as a result I have no idea what to do when I eventually finish.

I guess I'll just have to KBO, as Churchill would say.